Grass Becomes Brown As Kings Become Fish

So here I am. A full day of packing, driving, registering, unpacking, arranging, rearranging and orienteering has left me in a mild daze and as the night thickens, I find myself at my desk with an opportunity to take a second and unload. As my family could tell you, I was seemingly void of emotion as move-in day approached. Its not to say that I wasn't interested, uncertain, excited, nervous, anxious and the like, but I never allowed those feelings to linger long, which was the cause for them rarely surfacing above a cognitive awareness. Is it indifference? I'm not sure... It is true that I will seldom let those emotional tugs to sway my "composer," but is it that I just don't care? No, I care; its just my logic that tells me that anxiety and fear are pointless.

Logic is a funny thing. It's definition has been construed a bit by modern society and although some Atheists would like you to think otherwise, logic is key to the practice of Christianity as C.S. Lewis would say. Is not logic simply the "most obvious" course of action in consideration to subscribed truth? If I do indeed believe that there is a omnipotent and all knowing God that not only interacts with humanity, but looks after and cares for me on a very personal level then should not my perception and conduct be drastically altered from a view of solidarity?

This is largely why I don't subscribe to the stereotypical angst of today in general. Its pointless, distracting and down right not our place. It is this kind of indifference that I think is very good and dare I say necessary in the Christian walk. It is biblical if I'm not mistaken. Of course, the dangerous extreme to indifference seeps in when we begin to use that lack of concern as an excuse to sit on the sidelines or not even show up to the game. This laziness is paired tightly with that all-consuming desire for comfort. That kind of indifference is very easy to pull off, its another story when uncomfortable change knocks at the door.

So I guess I've done a good job so far with this college stuff; but that's a strong "so far." I've yet to reach 24 hours in this environment. By the way, talk about a different environment. I guess I've heard plenty about the mass amounts of freedom unleashed during these four years, but its still a mild shock. I mean how much more do I need to say than "no parents...?" I can see why so many go overboard or just get wild. It can easily be an overload of newfound liberty and its down right deadly. Sure going to your first PG-13 movie is nice, your own car and license is a thrill, but throw all of that into lifted age limitations and a sudden lack of wise overseers watching their every move and you get the stereotypical college student, hell-bent on soaking up as much pleasure as possible. To the prevailing altitude of maximum freedom/minimum responsibility that seems to permeate "college campi" the idea of prolonging pleasure is seen as traditionalist dogma. Do they not see what that highly habitual and addictive lifestyle brings them after years of abuse and over-stimulation? "Na man, gotta live it up while you can!" "Its all over once you get married," or once you have kids, once you get a job.

No, I'm sorry, but life isn't a buffet table for the masses. "Get what's good while you can" leads to a slow progressive train wreck life spent searching for more of the same. Why not instead take each bite as it comes, while truly savoring it for the genuine goodness? In short (ya right) these are two perspectives that I'd like to carry through the coming semesters. Will they be popular? Of course not... Will they be fulfilling? My logic only tells yes.

(I know my "style," as it were, in the past has been quite... thorough and unsystematic. More of the same for tonight I guess. But I'd like to change that as I have quite a different environment around me now. If my posts continue to be lengthy then so be it, but I'm aiming for more quantity this time around so as to keep you folks at home updated and let those around me now know more about my "inner ticking.")

Summer... and posting for the sake of posting

The photoshop posts have been short and sweet, but they suck up a lot of creative juices and the 10 page long homilies before that sucked up everything else. So I guess it was some prolonged downtime, or being fed up with the inactivity that has plagued our local net for months now. There was a lot to miss from those old blogging days and its something that will probably never return. Regardless, the one thing left is myself, and while no one is around anymore, its still nice to let loose some thoughts and just catch up with myself. So that's just what I'll do.

I always have to be careful with summers, because they can easily disappoint me. There's nothing like spending 2 weeks straight waking up at noon, mindlessly roaming around the house and having your eyes overstimulated by 5 hours of video games that gets you off to a great start for summer. Your two weeks down and you feel like your in the negative in terms of true entertainment levels. That's always fun... I've had about enough of those kind of summers.

I will always remember last year's opening weekend of summer; I don't think I will ever top it. It was my first year of taking duel credit ACC classes and, although I did very well, I was running on fumes as the school year ended. So as I handed in those last term papers the family packed up for a weekend trip to San Antonio's newest resort. Although those timeshares are about the biggest con-jobs in the world, they do provide some great accommodations for their presentations; no strings attached. Its a routine for us now, the parents drive us all down and sit through an hour long presentation while we enjoy whatever we can and then we say no thanks, swim in the pool for a while and take home our free toaster or whatever.

This time, we got a weekend stay and it was just what I needed to kick off the summer. Whether it was sleeping in, swimming in the many pools, splurging on ice cream, or napping in a hammock for hours in the afternoon, it was paradise.

I couldn't quite top that this year, but its not like I was disappointed. "Leave" was a great way to start this year's summer, although it wasn't exactly what I expected it to be. After busting my toe open in the first mud activity, I was rendered slightly immobile for the rest of the week, but in the end, I think it was good for me. I didn't have to worry about doing as many activities as possible and I merely enjoyed hanging around the snack bar and bringing the glorious game of scum back from Faith Franklin's banishment. It was an interesting adventure in my ultimate power over my own emotions and feelings, but that could be a whole other post. It was also good to get to know some of the guys better. We had some good conversations about the future of this youth group, but more about that later.

After getting back, we had a few weeks off before our family went travel crazy. I can't tell you guys how sweet it is to get out of the house often and do whatever. A car automatically boosts any summer to a whole other level. Me and my cousins went down to San Antonio and Fiesta Texas before me and Lydia snagged two seats for NBA Finals game 1. Oh and my Spurs won the Championship by the way; put that in your pipe and smoke it Jason. Fun fun fun...

Then there was Hawaii. I'm an old pro at this now; the 8 hour plane ride of which I've given up sleeping on, the 5 hour time zone difference, the tourist stuffed airport and both artificial and authentic Hawaii. As of now, I've been to every major island and just about all the "must-see" sights. Its really very interesting to see each of the sides of the tropical islands and I really shouldn't say tropical; that's a largely untrue stereotype. Speaking of stereotypes, the one I absolutely can't stand is the notion that everybody surfs in Hawaii. Besides the north shore of Oahu, there are a select few beaches that are even remotely surf-able. Most of the coast is made up of blackrock, man-made tide-pools, and resort created white sand coves that you can barely boogie board. So all you ignorant individuals can stop asking me if I surfed in Hawaii! Amazingly, there are other things you can do there!

For most of the trip we spent our time on the islands of Molokai and Lanai. Both of these islands are very remote and relatively untouched by tourism. Now don't go thinking that this means that these are lush untouched islands. No the natives have their paws all over them. There are some great secluded beaches and quaint towns and shops, but there isn't any hotel staff there to clean up the island so they certainly appear lived on. Otherwise, its nice to take in the true "hang loose" spirit, take it easy, and not get caught up in the hustle and bustle of the other westernized islands. We took advantage of some beaches, horseback riding, and a sweet little natural grass putt putt golf course. Otherwise, we were just taking it easy. Oh and another thing you might not know, these islands aren't covered in palm trees, rainforests and flamingos. That largely ends as you leave the resort complex. The wet sides are wet and the dry sides are dry. And those dry sides very closely resemble west Texas.


We did spend a day on Maui at the Westin. All I can say is that I like hot tubs. However, us kids were soon on a plane back to Austin for some rest before Boot Camp. Camp was great and I can just tell that my team will be awesome. More than anything, it was good to see the youth come together that week. Boot Camp does things to people and this year was no different. I've been around this youth group for a while now and I've seen times of growth and of uncertainty and I've wondered what will happen to you guys once I'm out of here. It was really good to talk to the "next generation" and pass on some advice and help set the tone for the summer. I won't talk too much about that because I'm not going to permit myself to. But I can see that this group of kids is heading in the right direction and its because enough of you know who's really doing the directing. So I'll call that an update and maybe, just maybe, I'll keep this blogging thing up.

Now It's Box's Turn

Go to my Sports Blog guys! I've just updated a post on the latest playoff news, which includes my first encounter with the "bar scene." Doesn't that sound interesting?

As proof that my threats aren't invalid, I've just finished up my second photoshop project with a little help from Franklin and Colin. Every great organization needs custom t-shirts and desktop wallpapers. I ain't making no t-shirts, but wallpapers I can do and who better to esteem than our lovable youth pastor. (You can start ordering the t-shirts Box) I see this as only the beginning so all you creative people out there start thinking up more ideas. But enough about that, I now give you the first series of Two14 wallpapers. Check out Colin's page for all the appropriate screen sizes.