Saturday, December 22, 2007

America: In Defense of a Dream

Below is what has become of my humble explanation for a YouTube video which I recently uploaded. It began as a handful of excuses but ended as a philosophical declaration on-

America: In Defense of a Dream



It was more of an experiment than anything; a tampering with various photos of earth and man, the innocuous trialing of film editing. There was no eager intention to make a statement or evoke an emotional release; all that may be felt is merely an unintentional derivative. The initial reaction of mine was to discount any consequent connotation and condemn the piece to the dwellings of feathery patriotic idioms, as something to be contained in the endless messages riddled with ethereal American pride and simplistic if not trite homage to a homeland and an indefinite ideal. Chain letters… chain letters most foul.

I would be quick to dismiss it, but something averts my self-detachment. Something holds me fast to this fanatical ultra-nationalism. The instinctive cynicist and realist in me quickly scoffs and points out the numerous flaws and failures; the oft detached and callous citizenry, the pony show of public appointment, the disregard for collective country past, present, and future. Our claims to unspoiled liberty and equality fracture in the face of veracity’s blows. Yet, I am still seized by an intention deeper than an instantaneous reaction to write off the display of unadorned communal identity. I want to keep dreaming… this dream of ambitious traitors.

We were branded the great governmental experiment, destined to disintegrate in our own dissension. Imperialistic Europe jeered our fledgling nation while in the throes of self-formation only to see us the savior from the waves of fascist tyranny. Our formation had no real outline; we lacked any blueprint for a people’s administration. Though commonplace now, the model of Lincoln’s government of, by and for the populace shook the cages of conventional rule centuries ago. Through the mist of creation a system that defies classification has emerged. We are constitutional, we are democratic, we are a Republic.

The idealistic picture of the United States is not reached in our true existence. It is an achievement that will, most likely, never come to fruition. The outcry of criticism often follows this realization that flawlessness eternally dangles just out of reach. But the naysayers have existed perhaps as long as times itself, the byproduct of the recognition of this fallen world. However, what if America’s greatness derives itself not from her perfection, but from her subtle, yet constant pursuit of this perfection? I do not wish to delineate the everyday actions of patriotism, but simply to take from its definition as love of country and the consistent aspiration for its betterment.

The depictions of the film reflect our nation’s identity, the contents of mountains, rivers, cities and plains, even more so, we as individuals are America. The denigration of our present state may be based in fact and uttered with the intention of positive resolution, but its existence endangers the common nationalism, the adhesive of our common taxonomy. For when negativity leads to division, it erodes our patriotic core and as with the great civilizations of old, we will inexorably decay into oblivion. This is not a fruitless call to obscure reality in a flag-covered tint, but merely a forewarning against an endless doubt and suggestion that our better days are ceaselessly to come. Our nation beseeches us to recall her prominence, to reverie for her eternal continuation, to learn from the past, labor for the present, look to the future… and more than anything, keep dreaming.

“There is nothing wrong with America that cannot be cured by what is right with America.”
-Bill Clinton

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

A Few Things I Don't Get

As finals are beginning to wind down and I'm met with some genuine free time, I am compelling myself to post more than once every month. It may be delusional but I'm going to try to get back to a weekly pattern. So I have been mulling around a bit while not working on those final school projects attempting to find a subject to post on. I've considered a post on the death penalty... oh, you fell asleep too? Or something on my past thanksgiving experiences, or even something on the fast approaching Christmas holiday, but I've already beat that to death.

Then it hit me, I've already done it plenty of times before, so why not dedicate an entire post to it? From salads to Marie Calender's pies; from holiday shopping to the week staring on Sunday; from baseball to Romo-mania; from college life to our societies view of love, I've filled this blog with my riffs on pop culture. I've already ripped the BCS. Let's keep this thing going. Who knows, maybe this could become a regular end of the year tradition. (Oh yeah, traditions and the year ending in December... I hate those too)

A Few Things I Just Don't Get:

-World of Warcraft (WOW)
I believe I've already dogged on the multitude of "fantasy" fanatics out there. Ahh yes, shall I revisit my words verbatim?

"I've never been a big fan of the whole mythology craze and I've had a hard time understanding why some people can get so infatuated with it. None of it is real; it is all completely made up and based on nothing of actuality. Where the heck did "elves" come from and why do some people seem to act as if they are real? I've come to theorize that the reason why so many love the supernatural is that it gives them a world in which they can at least fantasize about extra-ordinary power. In some extreme cases, it can be down right silly, but all of us are attracted to it to some extent. I see that the concept comes from God and his incredible power, but as always, the fascination can lead to the desire for self-empowerment."

A little preachy I know; I get that way sometimes. Regardless of the deeper spiritual correlations, I simply don't get the infatuation with the fundamentally fictional. Sure I'm like most everyone else, I like some good fiction in movies and books, but it still has to be believable for me. I can respect Tolkien as classic and genuinely good literature but as far as that whole genre, it really doesn't appeal to me at all. I guess I just despise supernatural storytelling because it can often negatively affect the writing, especially in terms of creativity. Oh no, our heroes are in a seemingly impossible situation, lets just overlook all those commonly held physical laws of nature and make up some quick fix out of nowhere and call it magic.

I don't get it and I don't particularly like it. It's probably the biggest reason why reacted so differently to the first two installments of Pirates of the Caribbean. I understand the allure of the unbelievable in entertainment; I call it the "Die Hard syndrome." However, I guess I find most of them to be believable to a point and the rest just appeals to the adrenalin factor. The ever increasing fantasy genre takes it too far for me all to often. It's probably why I simply don't enjoy the SciFi channel... at all.

Anyway, back to the game at hand. I don't even like the game classification; the whole role playing thing seems pretty stupid to me. Why would I want to spend hours "upgrading" some online character while engaging in less than enthralling combat? (Oh yeah, and they're all characters of fantasy; we all know how I feel about that) Am I the only one (and I know I'm not) who remembers the original Warcraft (or my favorite and slightly more believable Starcraft)? Those games were alright; I didn't mind playing them. I'm sorry, I enjoy real time strategy and first person shooters but I draw the line at role playing; it's down right boring.


And am I the only one who thinks that the game just looks absolutely retarded? I'm sorry, but for a game that involves itself in "epic" battles of fantasy with brutish and monsterish races it looks ridiculously bad and down right childish and comical. I swear, the first time I saw it being played I thought it was one of those late 90's educational games that teaches children basic math and grammar. If I have 3 elves and you give me 4 more elves...

What really bothers me is the prevalence of addiction right now. I'll admit it, on some weeks in the summer months I've spent 6 hours straight playing some ridiculously trivial game like Civ or Sim City, but after I pry loose my fingers from the sweaty mouse and let my eyes readjust to reality's light, I kick myself for wasting countless hours and promise myself to never play the game again. Admitting is the first step people. Honestly, I can understand the whole addiction to upgrading in gaming. By far my most favorite gaming activity would be Madden's franchise mode or NCAA's dynasty mode. I absolutely love turning the worst team in the league into a juggernaut in just 3-5 years and then moving on to the next cream puff. Now that is fun; but enough of that, I'm supposed to be on a tirade.

-The Religious Hullabaloo Over The Golden Compass
Keeping on the subject of fantasy, I'm getting pretty sick of "my" contingent's constant boycotting and whining over "anti-Christian" content. I can see where the movement is coming from and I don't have a problem with warning parents about the Golden Compass series' apparent anti-God undertones, but as always, people take it too far. Younger children are highly impressionable and I strongly support parents who screen what their kids see and hear. However, all the conspiracy theories on how Hollywood is plotting to jam atheism down our collective throats are getting kind of old. There are no grand conspiracies and even if there were, it shouldn't be that big of a surprise. Christ himself warned us that his own name would be persecuted.


I'm not challenging the fact that this series doesn't contain an agenda, I just don't understand the frenzy over an all-out boycott. Do you really expect to go through your entire life without ever facing a differing opinion than your own? This Christian isolationism really pisses me off. Apparently they don't really want to reach the world with the gospel that much. As I've said, I understand parental discretion, but if I'm not mistaken, this movie targets tweens and teens who, in my opinion are old enough to not be swayed by every little dissenting world view. The teenage years are an important time for an individual to begin to witness differing opinions while still under guidance of parental figures. In other words, by the time their children are teenagers, parents should move beyond simply telling their offspring what to believe, but instead tell them why they believe what they do and answer questions about everything else out there. Some believers attempt to construct a complete "Christian culture" to dwell in, the Ned Flanders bubble as I call it. That's a bubble I'd like to pop.

-Trial News Coverage
Micheal Vick is the latest in a long string of celebrity and non-celebrity trial frenzies that frustrate the hell out of me. I don't mind so much the occasional story on an IMPORTANT happening, but all to often the media flock to the courthouses and fill the waves with nonstop headlines about nothing. It doesn't matter if there's ever actually any progress in the trial, the coverage never stops. Every aspect of the proceedings is talked to death and I really don't care about the entire thing. I didn't care about OJ, I didn't care about Robert Blake, I didn't care about Paris Hilton, I didn't care about the yogurt shop murderers (that may just be an Austin thing) and I don't care about Micheal Vick. Maybe I'm in the extreme minority cause it seems as if everyone cares, but who knows, that may just be more media hype. Give me something of meaning, give me something not so continually morbid.

Disclaimer: There, I'm done for know. For those who do enjoy WOW and trial proceedings or really don't want to see Golden Compass, hey that's your thing. I don't understand it but to each his own. I'm sure most people would lift an eye at many of my habits. Please don't take it personally, I just don't understand you!

Sunday, December 02, 2007

Tell Me Where I'm Wrong

The Bowl Championship Series has been a lightning rod for criticism ever since its inception 9 years ago. The bowl selection system, which combines human polls with computer ratings, matches up the "theoretical" ten best teams in the nation including the two best who meet at the official BCS National Championship game. Every year has been mired in controversy and this year is no different.
  • 1998-99: In both '98 and '99 seasons the Kansas State Wildcats were excluded from any BCS bowl despite their respective #3 and #6 rankings.
  • 2000: The 2000 season found itself in a three way race for #2 as Florida State, Miami and Washington all accumulated only one loss. Oklahoma easily beat Florida State for the Championship, however both Washington and Miami also won their bowl games handily, which would forever taint the Sooner's title.
  • 2001: Nebraska beat out the higher ranked Colorado Buffalos and Oregon Ducks for the #2 spot in the championship game at the end of the '01 season despite not winning or even playing for the Big 12 title. The Huskers would end up being routed by Miami in the Fiesta Bowl.
  • 2003: The '03 season found itself with 3 BCS conference one loss teams and despite its #1 human ranking USC was knocked out of the championship game by LSU and an Oklahoma team that lost in the Big 12 title game. 2003 would be the first season in the BCS era where two champions where crowed due to a technicality.
  • 2004: Five teams entered the bowl '04 season undefeated, of which Auburn, Utah, and Boise State all were excluded from the championship game between USC and Oklahoma. All three would end up winning their respective bowl games.
  • 2005: Due to an obscure clause, Notre Dame was chosen over the higher ranked Oregon Ducks for the last BSC at large bid.
  • 2006: Florida beat out Michigan, Louisville, Wisconsin and undefeated Boise State for a chance to play undefeated Ohio State for the championship. Florida would end up beating the Buckeyes and claiming the title even though Boise State had beaten Oklahoma in the Fiesta Bowl to claim the only undefeated record of the '06 season.
  • 2007: ...
As of Saturday night there is only one undefeated team (Hawaii) in the nation and only two one loss teams. (Ohio State and Kansas) In a season littered with top 10 upsets and ranking confusion the BCS system is now responsible for choosing just two teams to play for the championship game in New Orleans. Never has there such uncertainty in who are the two best teams in the country; never have there been so many who have valid claims to the top spots. Below are are list of teams from last weeks BCS rankings who have a compelling entitlement.
  • Missouri- Their 11-2 record and two losses, both to Oklahoma will hurt them but their #1 ranking just one week ago confuses the issue. Despite being a solid team, Mizzou will most likely not receive a BCS bid at all due to highly ranked Kansas and Oklahoma.
  • West Virginia- Both of Mountaineers losses came to unranked South Florida and Pittsburgh teams. Regardless of this, West Virginia backs into the Big East title due to a tie breaker, their only real claim to the title game.
  • Ohio State- The Buckeyes won the Big Ten title handedly and claim a rare one loss record. However, OSU's one loss was to an unranked Illinois team and the Big Ten has been a notoriously lackluster conference as of late.
  • Georgia- The Bulldogs are riding a a six game win streak but were excluded from the SEC title game and lost to unranked Tennessee and South Carolina.
  • Kansas- The Jayhawks have been solid throughout the season and have only recorded one loss, however they were excluded from the Big 12 title game and their only loss to Missouri was their only game against a top ranked team.
  • Virginia Tech- The Hokies haven't drawn a lot of attention through the season as their consistency has been in doubt. However their only were to top ranked LSU and a Boston Collage team which they beat last week to win the ACC.
  • LSU- The Tigers only losses were to Kentucky and Arkansas, both in overtime. They have conquered the feared SEC and are likely to meet Ohio State in the title game.
  • USC- The consensus number one coming into the season, the Trojans lost their composure to quality Oregon and Arizona State teams. Recently though, Southern California has been on a tear and have rapped up their sixth straight BCS berth.
  • Oklahoma- Their losses to unranked Colorado and Texas Tech will hurt their cause, otherwise they have beaten top ranked Texas and Missouri and won the Big 12 title.
  • Hawaii- Boise State's undefeated season last year has legitimatized mid major teams for a chance for the title.
  • Arizona State- Although a long shot for the title game the Sun Devil's only losses are to top ranked Oregon and USC.
As of mere minuets ago, LSU will play Ohio State for the BCS title game in the Louisiana Superdome. If anything this year's race for the title proves that a 8 or 16 team playoff is desperately needed. Each of the teams on this long list deserve at least a shot, especially Hawaii. The BCS can still be used as the selection system for the playoff and the traditional bowl games can still exist outside of the playoff or serve as games themselves. However, randomly picking the apparent two best team belittles the trophy that we give. Why can't the gridiron be the deciding factor instead of a computer? They act as if a playoff is completely foreign to sporting.

Friday, October 19, 2007

Birthdays and Those Nagging Halloweens

I find myself wondering when I'll get a weekend. The two or so weeks that made up the Drama production of "Dead Man Walking" caused quite a lot of late nights and tried patience. I didn't have much time for homework or really much of anything outside of Jackson Auditorium. Through all the exhaustion was a good experience, but I'm glad for it to be over. Too bad "Rally" opens in less than a week and I probably wont have much of a life this week.

Anyway, wedged in the middle of the strenuous schedule a few weeks ago was my 19th. birthday; a fact that didn't stir up a whole lot of emotional stimulation. It's nothing new, true excitement over my approaching birthday quickly faded after about age 10. Sure, its still something to enjoy, but I discovered that I had better things to do than to emotionally writhe in anticipation. Looking back, this transformation my have had causation deeper than simple mental maturation.

Growing up in that homeschool environment that inevitably dooms all who enter to a limited social circle may have opened my eye's up to the sad truths regarding early adolescents before most others around me. My birthdays were a perfect example of this. Although I never really looked forward to the simple date of birth, for a period of 4-5 years, I highly anticipated the party that would bring all my closest friends together. So I would plan months in ahead and perfect ever aspect of the get-together, which I moved from late October to the Holiday break for the College Football National Championship game or to late January for the Super Bowl.

I hated hearing the excuses of too much school work, or not knowing in time so I made sure to give months of lead time and constantly remind my friends to run it through their parents. (a concept that never seemed to sink in) Some years were great and and really fulfilled the expectations I had for the party, but for the most part, my ego took a hit every year. Most everyone I would invite couldn't or didn't make time for one evening and for someone who doesn't attend a school everyday and has constant exposure to his peers it was a shot right to the heart. Much like the many end of school parties that haunt my memories, it was a vivid reminder that the majority of those who I thought enjoyed my company, in reality, couldn't have cared less.

My birthday parties were one of the many events that scarred my social growth and for a time caused my to give up on interaction completely. That phase didn't last long, but it's all part of my maturation in terms of interaction with others. God made us to be relational beings, but the majority of our associations are dominated by selfish cravings, which inevitably lead to heartache and bitterness. I've become accustom to it, it's just who we are as humans. I still need to remind myself often; I have the phrase "people will always fail to fulfill my expectations" on my cell phone welcome screen. I try my best to always selflessly interact with others while at the same time not throw a pity fit when others don't return the favor.

Another thing that sours my birth season is its proximity to Halloween. That's right, I'm not a fan. It's not that I hate the prevalence of "evil" like some hopped up religious nut. (although I've never quite understood the fascination) I've just never liked how commercialized it is, and that goes for most every holiday. I love spending time with friends and family during some time off, but as for the mass commercial festivities, I'd rather do without. I've never been one for dressing up, why do you think that day would be any different? I've also never understood why Halloween magically gives many "ladies" that right to dress up like, how should I say it... deviant little sluts? For some reason, we see Halloween as the day of the year to embrace "evil" as something to be celebrated, something that will forever bewilder me.

What's next? Thanksgiving and the dreaded Black Friday; yet another concept that grinds my gears. No matter, while some materialistic psychos spend hours grappling with other sleep deprived nut-jobs for inanimate objects I'll be relaxing with family and friends; giving thanks for life and its true joys.

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Weekends in Austin

For the last few weekends I've been milling around trying to think up a post in order to keep this trend going. (In other words, I like being the only one who keeps up on blogging) But, I've either been unable to find a topic of interest or too busy. I've been in Austin a lot in the last month or so and in some instances I've wanted to be back, others not so much.

Weekends in Seguin are interesting. I feel some guilt every time I skedaddle back to Austin, but then of course, when I spend the weekend on the always bustling TLU campus, there's nothing to do, unless of course I want to "throw some down," get plastered, and participate in whatever activities follow; it's always a surprise... I guess I'm just not very good at this college stuff am I?

I've recently noticed how many movies I saw over the summer, probably more than all my previous summers combined. That habit apparently didn't carry over to the school year as I've only graced a theater once, it was well worth it though. You'd think it would be a blockbuster and/or box office hit but no, I'd be surprised if the flick made $1 million. It was a documentary by Ron Howard and only opened in about 5 theaters in Texas, which is why it was required of me to spend the weekend at home in order to actually watch said documentary.

Following Howard's enthusiasm for the US Space Program, In the Shadow of the Moon documents the Apollo moon landings in the words of the few men alive who have set foot on an alien world. Being the history buff and space junkie that I am, I was looking forward to the opening for weeks and got the whole family to join in as we found the only cinema in Austin that will show small independent films. It was all that I had wanted and for 4/5ths of it, the movie was good. It was the last ten minutes that made this documentary great.

Hearing from these former astronauts, many of whom have now become Christians, what they experienced and how they now view the earth and the existence of man itself was something special and it's why I think everyone would enjoy it. If you're able to find the theater, its still showing in Austin and I'd highly recommend it.



After that movie excursion on Saturday afternoon, I "dropped off" my siblings at a dodgeball tournament and was soon roped into playing for the next 2 hours; man was I sore. Sunday afternoon was spent as a family at Olive Garden and I've discovered how much fun we have now. After enduring 17 years of awkward, tension filled family outings, all of a sudden we seem to get along... mostly. All of a sudden I enjoy coming back and spending time with them; who saw that coming? I mean I still crank up Sum 41's "Walking Disaster" as I approach the Austin city limit (that's a good album by the way, anyone else out there into it?) but I can't say that I can identify with all the lyrics, just some of them, and that's a good thing...

Last weeks visit wasn't quite for kicks, I've been needing to see an off-campus play for my Drama class and since Seguin isn't exactly a center for the arts, I was back in Austin once again while still fighting off the remnants of a mild cold. The afternoon preceding the play wasn't too amusing. My father was trying to replace the kitchen faucet while the girls were away and after halfway flooding the house and shutting off the water for 3 hours, which prevented me from taking a much needed shower, Texas laid an egg while playing KSU. Oh and all this on top of my car dieing out on me. Needless to say, I pulled into the obscure theaters parking lot with a bit of leftover frustration.

It was a fast-paced political comedy that pulled a few good chuckles out of me, but overall left me less than pleased as the last 10 minutes degraded into a pro-anarchy tirade. Sigh... I got back to my house at 11 at night and ready for the day to be over. Sunday was better; the perfect weather lured me out of the house for some after-church football. Due to my condition, I wasn't %100, but football is football. The rest of the day I spent trying to spend some time with my now sociable family while still getting my Camry to a shop. Homework kept me up till after midnight and I needed to catch a ride back to campus early Monday morning but at least I left feeling like I'd had some type of fulfilling weekend.

This weekend was homecoming and I had the family (or at least some of them) down for a visit. Next weekend is Fall break (a concept I'm still trying to comprehend but thankful for none the less) so I'll be doing what I can only assume everyone else on campus is doing for the extended weekend, getting on home. Let's hope this doesn't get too routine...

So that's what I'm up to, rap that post up and ship it.

Friday, September 14, 2007

Yes, About This Love You Speak Of...

Welcome back, did you enjoy the break? I can say that I have. Things have settled down and classes are going great. Let's just say walking into the dinning hall isn't as awkward anymore. Anyway, I've said too much.

It was probably three years ago now when myself, Troy and Jake Franklin met at an inconspicuous Applebees in early June and made an apparently weak pact to read C.S. Lewis' "Mere Christianity" over the summer. Well, as of a few weeks ago, I've completed the piece and I'm going to have to update my Facebook favorites page. I'd have to say that it bears my official universal recommendation. Whether you're a Christian or not, I think everyone needs have this on the bedpost at some time. It's pretty much impossible to go through life without picking up the all too common falsities surrounding the the Christian faith and in the interest of simple understanding, Mere Christianity is an important read.

I could probably write my own book on just my responses to C.S. Lewis, but for now I'd like to focus on one crazy little thing called love... A lot of this could be traced back to a long winded post on marriage that burned out on me a few months back, but I do this chiefly so I can just start cataloging my reactions to Mere Christianity and return a favor, if you will, to an unnamed associate. In that nonexistent marriage post I hearkened to my frustration and confusion to today's use of the word love and its perceived labels assigned by society. Who doesn't love society...? Perhaps its just the constant evolution of the spoken word, but much like my views on "pop-dating" today, I don't understand or particularly subscribe to the current concept of love.

1 Corinthians 13:1-3
"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing."

Everything from romantic comedies to candy wrappers tantalizes the emotions with delightful little notions of affection. But what if these insubstantial axioms are merely this fallen world's best attempts to delineate a conception that transcends our human existence? So often we wave the banner of love without a desire to define it and so intertwine it with the yearnings of our selfish hearts. Why do we utilize such a powerful concept so recklessly and then act so shocked when what we have tried to construct with it so painfully shatters to pieces?

Perhaps the largest reason why we in the English speaking world so vaguely discern the love we speak of is that our words fail to match the aspects. If only English were more like Greek, the language of most of the New Testament. Wikipedia clarifies the Greek definitions as such:

The New Testament, which was written in Greek, only used two Greek words for love: agapē and philia. However, there are several Greek words for Love.

  • AgapÄ“. In the New Testament, agapÄ“ is charitable, selfless, altruistic, and unconditional. It is parental love seen as creating goodness in the world, it is the way God is seen to love humanity, and it is seen as the kind of love that Christians aspire to have for others.
  • Philia. Also used in the New Testament, philia is a human response to something that is found to be delightful. Also known as "brotherly love".
  • Eros (sexual love) is never used in the New Testament.
  • Storge (needy child-to-parent love) only appears in the compound word philostorgos (Rom 12:10).
Too often, we curb clarification and pay the price for it. We confuse or largely ignore the majority of these forms and so what is naturally good and beneficial to the fulfillment of life is reduced to disconcerting deviancy. Though these are all differing forms of the perfect love, there is something, make that many things that are central to love and we find them in the 13th. chapter of Corinthians.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."

Often, we read through the list of characteristics and find them quite obvious and agreeable, but when put into practice, we fall miserably short and quickly resort to something less selfless and not so hard. We claim to love as if it were easy; some kind of second nature that utterly compels us to remain devoted endlessly. How trite and romanticistic... You want to know what love looks like? Here's your checklist. Let's not fool ourselves, how much do our mundane little assumptions on love truly match up? Part of our being human is facing the fact that we cannot in fact emulate true love. Much in the same way that we cannot ourselves be holy. However, no one can say that the bar has not been set.

Now, an especially frustrating concept that it thoroughly confused by man, the unfortunate blurring between attraction and love. As Lewis would say "the difference between being in love and love itself."

An excerpt from "Mere Christianity"
"What we call 'being in love ' is a glorious state, and, in several ways, good for us. It helps to make generous and courageous, it opens our eyes not only to the beauty of the beloved but to all beauty, and it subordinates (especially at first) our merely animal sexuality; in that sense, love is the great conqueror of lust. No one in his senses would deny that being in love is far better than either common sensuality or cold self-centredness. But, as I said before, 'the most dangerous thing you can do is to take any one impulse of our own nature and set it up as the thing you ought to follow at all costs'. Being in love is a good thing, but it is not the best thing. There are many things below it, but there are also things above it. You cannot make it the basis of a whole life. It is a noble feeling, but it is still a feeling. Now no feeling can be relied on to last in its full intensity, or even to last at all. Knowledge can last, principles can last, habits can last; but feelings come and go. And in fact, whatever people say, the state called 'being in love' usually does not last. If the old fairy-tale ending 'They lived happily ever after' is taken to mean 'They felt for the next fifty years exactly as they felt the day before they were married', then then it says what probably never was or never would be true, and would be highly undesirable if it were. Who could bear to live in that excitement for even five years? What would become of your work, your appetite, your sleep, your friendships? But of course, ceasing to be 'in love' need not mean ceasing to love. Love in this second sense- love is distinct from 'being in love'-is not merely a feeling. It is a deep unity, maintained by will and deliberately strengthened by habit; reinforced by (in Christian marriages) the grace which both partners ask, and receive, from God. They can have this love for each other even when they do not like each other; as you love yourself even when you do not like yourself. They can retain this love even when each would easily, if they allowed themselves, be 'in love' with someone else. 'Being in love' first moved them to promise fidelity: this quieter love enables them to keep the promise. It is on this love that the engine of marriage is run: being in love was the explosion that started it.

... People get from books the idea that if you married the right person you may expect to go on 'being in love for ever. As a result, when they find that they are not, they think this proves that they made a mistake and are entitled to change-not realising that that, when they have changed, the glamour will presently go out of the new love just as it went out of the old one."

Lewis goes on to make a case for embracing the new and more intimate aspects of marriage just as we greatly enjoy initially "being in love." The trap we can fall into is holding on to those old pleasures that we experienced in our youth, spending the rest of our lives trying to recapture the old feelings that have been hopelessly subsided. I'm sure we can all think of a few examples of this. Lewis continues by frowning on the notion that falling in love is a helpless endeavor that cannot be fought. So when some new person with a beautiful spirit crosses our path, we must "follow our heart." Ahh, the great trap of sexualizing every aspect of love in order to chase our fallen desires. Can we not love outside of marriage? Of course we can. We can love individuals for who they are without throwing sacred promises to the wind.

So it seems that love involves a great deal of work and commitment, especially when it is not easy. But it sounds so unromantic doesn't it? Why can't I follow my feelings? Sigh... Again you're letting the world dictate what you think, what you want to think. In doing that, you've taken an inherently good thing and making it an obsession, leaving no room for the fulfillment of God's love.

So, I've drawn out (drawn out indeed) a few things for myself, I hope that you can take something as well. Love's potency requires much care and dedication. Don't let yourself or others butcher its meaning. And read Mere Christianity!

Friday, August 31, 2007

Worlds Collide... I Miss the Old One...

First of all, my trip back to Austin after only one week at college was unintentional and a broken promise to myself. Yes, I am ashamed. I can't even go one week without crawling back home. In actuality, I had planned to make a quick day trip to pick up some art supplies (since Seguin apparently has no artsy fartsy store) only to find out that one of my long time friends was leaving Austin and having a final get-together during Sunday afternoon. So, my quick, drop by visit turned into an action packed nighter. I'm sure the activity level exceeded anything I would have been doing back in Seguin. (haven't quite cracked the party scene yet)

But as I was packing up on Sunday afternoon, I was struck with some familiar depression. The excitement of orientation left no room for teary-eyed goodbyes two weeks ago so this was new, and yet not new at all. (but more on that later) There was a comfort and secure familiarity with the weekend, especially at church. So much of me wants to screw this college stuff and nestle myself back into that awesome senior lifestyle.

Excuse me as I reach back into my file but you stiffs still at SW have something special. I'd love to give an elongated history lesson, but I'm trying to slim these things down. What I'm trying to say is it wasn't always like it is now. Back in the days, before even Troy and Stevie, when we met in YMCA yoga rooms, obscure portables, and Elementary School libraries. When we were without a youth group leader for months at a time and attendance was a solid 4 or 5 brave souls. I remember having previous acquaintances visit and/or dragged in by interested parents with the dear in the headlights look mixed with a "this sucks; lets go to EV-Free"mentality. I really didn't blame them. My first Backyard Bible Clubs experience had convinced me that this church and community was something special, but it was still so awkward for so long.

It was good for me; those kind of situations will either tune you out or force your individual growth. Thank God it was the latter. No more of that superficial Westlake social group that just happened to meet at a church. No, only God could cause people to stick out environments like HCBCSW in its infancy. Obviously I've seen it grow all this time, and as our community continued to grow and strengthen, the more I felt a part of God's purpose. I spent most of my years in high school searching for true friendship and church only fostered that for a fraction of that time. I miss it now; it hurts me to leave something that I've seen grow up in Christ along side me.

I've had this depressing mood-set before, I remember it well. It was just a month ago on a late Sunday night in the Dairy Queen across from the Northwest "mothership." Sean was tagging along (he seems to do that often) and we both shared a feeling of emptiness. It depresses me further that I now find the Concert of Praise to be such a let down, its not the same as it was years ago. I think a large part of that is that I've since come to the realization that the Concert of Praise marks the end of the Great Adventure. An end to the closeness I felt with friends and with Christ. An end to a clear sense of singular purpose and joy-bringing unity in Christ. We were all comrades in the spiritual war for humanity and there's no other feeling like it. I've come to cherish my summers, not as much for the time off, but for the time were we as believers can join in holy evangelism and service to ourselves and to the world.

God I miss it, and its now obvious that I'm so depressed because I'm "quiting cold turkey." I find myself asking God why I should be leaving something so good and glorifying to him? Why can't I just hang around, take a few ACC classes, and stay nestled in that cocoon of comfortable Christian culture? At this point I recognize my supreme selfishness and longing for path well traveled. I take a long breath, give a deep sigh and apologize. Forging ahead is what the Christian life is about. I'm only going to grow in environments where I am not quite comfortable and thusly reliant on God's direction. So I'm forced to look back and simply remember the good times, drop in and see you guys every once and a while, and forge ahead. Its not like I left God back in Austin.

As for you guys, make this short time you have special. Open up to others and to God, cherish those times given to you; they wont last forever. More than anything, hold onto what you came from. I don't want you to become another Plugerville; Sean can fill you in on that little explanation. Good luck to you Southwest, it was a heck of a ride.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Grass Becomes Brown As Kings Become Fish

So here I am. A full day of packing, driving, registering, unpacking, arranging, rearranging and orienteering has left me in a mild daze and as the night thickens, I find myself at my desk with an opportunity to take a second and unload. As my family could tell you, I was seemingly void of emotion as move-in day approached. Its not to say that I wasn't interested, uncertain, excited, nervous, anxious and the like, but I never allowed those feelings to linger long, which was the cause for them rarely surfacing above a cognitive awareness. Is it indifference? I'm not sure... It is true that I will seldom let those emotional tugs to sway my "composer," but is it that I just don't care? No, I care; its just my logic that tells me that anxiety and fear are pointless.

Logic is a funny thing. It's definition has been construed a bit by modern society and although some Atheists would like you to think otherwise, logic is key to the practice of Christianity as C.S. Lewis would say. Is not logic simply the "most obvious" course of action in consideration to subscribed truth? If I do indeed believe that there is a omnipotent and all knowing God that not only interacts with humanity, but looks after and cares for me on a very personal level then should not my perception and conduct be drastically altered from a view of solidarity?

This is largely why I don't subscribe to the stereotypical angst of today in general. Its pointless, distracting and down right not our place. It is this kind of indifference that I think is very good and dare I say necessary in the Christian walk. It is biblical if I'm not mistaken. Of course, the dangerous extreme to indifference seeps in when we begin to use that lack of concern as an excuse to sit on the sidelines or not even show up to the game. This laziness is paired tightly with that all-consuming desire for comfort. That kind of indifference is very easy to pull off, its another story when uncomfortable change knocks at the door.

So I guess I've done a good job so far with this college stuff; but that's a strong "so far." I've yet to reach 24 hours in this environment. By the way, talk about a different environment. I guess I've heard plenty about the mass amounts of freedom unleashed during these four years, but its still a mild shock. I mean how much more do I need to say than "no parents...?" I can see why so many go overboard or just get wild. It can easily be an overload of newfound liberty and its down right deadly. Sure going to your first PG-13 movie is nice, your own car and license is a thrill, but throw all of that into lifted age limitations and a sudden lack of wise overseers watching their every move and you get the stereotypical college student, hell-bent on soaking up as much pleasure as possible. To the prevailing altitude of maximum freedom/minimum responsibility that seems to permeate "college campi" the idea of prolonging pleasure is seen as traditionalist dogma. Do they not see what that highly habitual and addictive lifestyle brings them after years of abuse and over-stimulation? "Na man, gotta live it up while you can!" "Its all over once you get married," or once you have kids, once you get a job.

No, I'm sorry, but life isn't a buffet table for the masses. "Get what's good while you can" leads to a slow progressive train wreck life spent searching for more of the same. Why not instead take each bite as it comes, while truly savoring it for the genuine goodness? In short (ya right) these are two perspectives that I'd like to carry through the coming semesters. Will they be popular? Of course not... Will they be fulfilling? My logic only tells yes.

(I know my "style," as it were, in the past has been quite... thorough and unsystematic. More of the same for tonight I guess. But I'd like to change that as I have quite a different environment around me now. If my posts continue to be lengthy then so be it, but I'm aiming for more quantity this time around so as to keep you folks at home updated and let those around me now know more about my "inner ticking.")

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Summer... and posting for the sake of posting

The photoshop posts have been short and sweet, but they suck up a lot of creative juices and the 10 page long homilies before that sucked up everything else. So I guess it was some prolonged downtime, or being fed up with the inactivity that has plagued our local net for months now. There was a lot to miss from those old blogging days and its something that will probably never return. Regardless, the one thing left is myself, and while no one is around anymore, its still nice to let loose some thoughts and just catch up with myself. So that's just what I'll do.

I always have to be careful with summers, because they can easily disappoint me. There's nothing like spending 2 weeks straight waking up at noon, mindlessly roaming around the house and having your eyes overstimulated by 5 hours of video games that gets you off to a great start for summer. Your two weeks down and you feel like your in the negative in terms of true entertainment levels. That's always fun... I've had about enough of those kind of summers.

I will always remember last year's opening weekend of summer; I don't think I will ever top it. It was my first year of taking duel credit ACC classes and, although I did very well, I was running on fumes as the school year ended. So as I handed in those last term papers the family packed up for a weekend trip to San Antonio's newest resort. Although those timeshares are about the biggest con-jobs in the world, they do provide some great accommodations for their presentations; no strings attached. Its a routine for us now, the parents drive us all down and sit through an hour long presentation while we enjoy whatever we can and then we say no thanks, swim in the pool for a while and take home our free toaster or whatever.

This time, we got a weekend stay and it was just what I needed to kick off the summer. Whether it was sleeping in, swimming in the many pools, splurging on ice cream, or napping in a hammock for hours in the afternoon, it was paradise.

I couldn't quite top that this year, but its not like I was disappointed. "Leave" was a great way to start this year's summer, although it wasn't exactly what I expected it to be. After busting my toe open in the first mud activity, I was rendered slightly immobile for the rest of the week, but in the end, I think it was good for me. I didn't have to worry about doing as many activities as possible and I merely enjoyed hanging around the snack bar and bringing the glorious game of scum back from Faith Franklin's banishment. It was an interesting adventure in my ultimate power over my own emotions and feelings, but that could be a whole other post. It was also good to get to know some of the guys better. We had some good conversations about the future of this youth group, but more about that later.

After getting back, we had a few weeks off before our family went travel crazy. I can't tell you guys how sweet it is to get out of the house often and do whatever. A car automatically boosts any summer to a whole other level. Me and my cousins went down to San Antonio and Fiesta Texas before me and Lydia snagged two seats for NBA Finals game 1. Oh and my Spurs won the Championship by the way; put that in your pipe and smoke it Jason. Fun fun fun...

Then there was Hawaii. I'm an old pro at this now; the 8 hour plane ride of which I've given up sleeping on, the 5 hour time zone difference, the tourist stuffed airport and both artificial and authentic Hawaii. As of now, I've been to every major island and just about all the "must-see" sights. Its really very interesting to see each of the sides of the tropical islands and I really shouldn't say tropical; that's a largely untrue stereotype. Speaking of stereotypes, the one I absolutely can't stand is the notion that everybody surfs in Hawaii. Besides the north shore of Oahu, there are a select few beaches that are even remotely surf-able. Most of the coast is made up of blackrock, man-made tide-pools, and resort created white sand coves that you can barely boogie board. So all you ignorant individuals can stop asking me if I surfed in Hawaii! Amazingly, there are other things you can do there!

For most of the trip we spent our time on the islands of Molokai and Lanai. Both of these islands are very remote and relatively untouched by tourism. Now don't go thinking that this means that these are lush untouched islands. No the natives have their paws all over them. There are some great secluded beaches and quaint towns and shops, but there isn't any hotel staff there to clean up the island so they certainly appear lived on. Otherwise, its nice to take in the true "hang loose" spirit, take it easy, and not get caught up in the hustle and bustle of the other westernized islands. We took advantage of some beaches, horseback riding, and a sweet little natural grass putt putt golf course. Otherwise, we were just taking it easy. Oh and another thing you might not know, these islands aren't covered in palm trees, rainforests and flamingos. That largely ends as you leave the resort complex. The wet sides are wet and the dry sides are dry. And those dry sides very closely resemble west Texas.


We did spend a day on Maui at the Westin. All I can say is that I like hot tubs. However, us kids were soon on a plane back to Austin for some rest before Boot Camp. Camp was great and I can just tell that my team will be awesome. More than anything, it was good to see the youth come together that week. Boot Camp does things to people and this year was no different. I've been around this youth group for a while now and I've seen times of growth and of uncertainty and I've wondered what will happen to you guys once I'm out of here. It was really good to talk to the "next generation" and pass on some advice and help set the tone for the summer. I won't talk too much about that because I'm not going to permit myself to. But I can see that this group of kids is heading in the right direction and its because enough of you know who's really doing the directing. So I'll call that an update and maybe, just maybe, I'll keep this blogging thing up.

Monday, May 14, 2007

Now It's Box's Turn

Go to my Sports Blog guys! I've just updated a post on the latest playoff news, which includes my first encounter with the "bar scene." Doesn't that sound interesting?

As proof that my threats aren't invalid, I've just finished up my second photoshop project with a little help from Franklin and Colin. Every great organization needs custom t-shirts and desktop wallpapers. I ain't making no t-shirts, but wallpapers I can do and who better to esteem than our lovable youth pastor. (You can start ordering the t-shirts Box) I see this as only the beginning so all you creative people out there start thinking up more ideas. But enough about that, I now give you the first series of Two14 wallpapers. Check out Colin's page for all the appropriate screen sizes.



Friday, May 04, 2007

In Memory of Barbaro


It’s times like these when I just feel like a horrible human being, but then I read it once more and laugh my devious little rear end off. This was a product of being fed up with this endless horse obsession and a little photo-shop fun. Just so you know, I'm just getting started. You're next Box.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

More Or Less An Answer

I had originally waited an extra week or two before posting a follow-up to the "riddle" because of the lack of comments or any kind of recognition of existence from the usual suspects. What is now a month old post was meant to be at least some kind of communication to the outside world while I focused on homework and it seems that even my simple scramble for content was more than what most have been contributing lately. My wait is up and now the once casually considered and now undoubtedly forgotten riddle will entertain an answer, or at least my attempt at one.

I had wondered how to best present you with my written puzzle. Oh, I guess I should tell you now that, yes, I did write it. A bit deceptive I know, but I wanted to see what the reaction was with a presumed mystery writer. In short, this little riddle was the product of endless hours of late night term paper writing and out of the shear exhaustion came words from seemingly nowhere. Funny how being fed up of writing could actually lead to more writing, but the words kept flowing and I have been perfecting it ever since. My Dad thought it sounded like C.S. Lewis and I liken being compared to such a masterful author.

Of the smattering of commenters out there, a few of you had intriguing answers. Namely Jake Franko's response; I'd like to hear his explanation further. If we're going for winners though, Faith's answer was technically closest. (of course, that conclusion is dependent on whether there is any concrete answer at all; that's namely why I posted this paper, to see the notions and thinking processes of others; who am I to set in stone any one answer to such a subjective piece?) However, before I just hand you an answer, let's dissect this riddle a bit and make light of little nuggets that I find especially intriguing.


"If you wish to be stupid, I will kill you on site. Depicting you as an utter fool for humanity to perceive, mocking, criticizing, silencing. Or I shall simply distance every ear. For stupidity amongst men, like morality, is merely for the majority to conclude and can quite easily be their justification for your insanity."

If you were perceptive enough, you should have caught the first big clue near the end of this segment pertaining to the line "amongst men." The use of the word kill may be a little strong, as it is really more of a social death, but I still think that it can be associated with the essence of killing.

We've all seen examples of the last line occur to some extent. A radical fringe group makes claims that are so beyond the mainstream that most of the human community simply mocks their extreme views and largely pays no attention. However, when this issue seeps into the debate over ethical conduct and morality, a large part of mankind resorts to majority rule, or even moral relativism, which ultimately unravels any kind of universal truth. I often wonder how atheists can justify the solidity of basic right and wrong with no higher power or supreme creator of life. When we are the highest forms of existence, justice and law fall apart.


"Betraying the body that built you up, you assert the embedded evil we all hastily seek to destroy hidden somewhere in ourselves. The deepest of fears is that you will embody our most secret of thoughts, screaming them to others, our truest of feelings and longings. For this, we must suppress you with every ounce of strength. You are the quintessence of just sentiment and your cadence trembles the mind from whence you escaped. As a shadow amongst the long lost titans, we cannot stand here while you blast us with the undesirable truth. There is no greater terror than bringing told what we all know somewhere close to or everlasting souls; it can never be brought to full illumination."


Much like the word "kill" in the first line, The use of the word "evil" is a bit strong, but I tend to think that, in a way, from evil's standpoint, good is seen as evil. (I just kind of gave you a pretty big clue there)

Going off the concept of universal truth, when we, living in sin, are told that we are, thusly, living in evil, a large amount of us tend to get defensive. We try to suppress it and hold on to the comfort and supposed satisfaction. Isn't it quite true when we say that "the truth isn't pretty?"


"I am the most noted giver of good news and delight, whether it be ramblings or fully fictitious rants, I supply them to you and your shallow yearnings. You demand little of me, so I provide even less, only imparting just the amount that will leave you gasping for a breath of some lasting fulfillment. You cannot face me in my full state of being, for I am everywhere a soul seeks satisfaction, however momentary it may be. You can never be free from my abundance of slightest deceptions as long as those to careless to place worth in an essence somewhere past the temporal choose to follow me to an immortal wasteland."

As humans, it can be easy to follow the little pleasures of life. Most are quite harmless in moderation, but we can quite easily become addicted to them and before we know it, we've fallen into the pit of self gratification. The worst part is that these sources of satisfaction never last and we are always left with the want for just a little more. It consumes us more and more until we are completely wasted beings, having never been contented. We end up destroying our lives, shredding our bonds with others and with God.


"The self-proclaimed wise are in my front pocket; they are addicted to my meaningless praise and pedestals. Never underestimate the ignorant in mass; for they are led into the pit with ease, their unity is their downfall."

I have always been weary of a prevailing mindset which seems to permeate most institutions of "higher learning." It is the attitude that greater intelligence equals plain superiority and it is a trap that many of us can fall into. Although it may not be as acknowledged as it was with the high classes of earlier centuries, we today can still find ourselves glorifying what we have made ourselves. The root of this is pride and like before, can become an addiction that leads to nothingness.

Yet with all the individualism today, there is still the urge to conform and be apart of that all important majority. Peer pressure is only the beginning.


"Come, I have trinkets and comforts, dazzling and inviting; albeit lasting as a spark in the wind. If it is fantasy, or the supernatural you fancy, behold my empty objects of anonymity. They promise you the mystical power you seek. If nothing less, let me busy you with my numerous pursuits, for they are the modern definition of livelihood."

I've never been a big fan of the whole mythology craze and I've had a hard time understanding why some people can get so infatuated with it. None of it is real; it is all completely made up and based on nothing of actuality. Where the heck did "elves" come from and why do some people seem to act as if they are real? I've come to theorize that the reason why so many love the supernatural is that it gives them a world in which they can at least fantasize about extra-ordinary power. In some extreme cases, it can be down right silly, but all of us are attracted to it to some extent. I see that the concept comes from God and his incredible power, but as always, the fascination can lead to the desire for self-empowerment.

As society continues to progress, we continue to find ourselves to be more rapt up in the minute details than ever before. It has become a lifestyle to try to "get the most out of life" and see how much we can stack up. Technology has made life's basics easier and less time consuming, so now we think we need to fill in the excess. Instead we fall into fast paced rut that never slows down or fulfills our essential need for joy.


"You should learn to embrace me, so many have. Give me the burden of responsibility and truth; they are of little use for you and are safest in my hands. A few will tell you to fear me; they call me “The Beast.” But that cannot impart remotely what it is you face. “The Beast” created me; it is him you should fear. I am no more than his pawn on this vast stage of the cosmos and beyond. Are you prepared to face me? Can you muster the strength to leave me? The only way to conquer me is to destroy it; everything, the essence of it all, the entire physical world with all its substance and senses departing with me. This is no mere riddle mind you. The knowledge of my existence, let alone my stifling power is an exceptional commodity. Can you live without me? Have you ever truly lived with me?"

Who Am I?

I hope that through my elongated analysis that you've come closer to the answer. It's so much to process and take in that your brain often can just shut down and, shall I say, demand to move on and just post a random comment. My hope is that you've made it this far and even if you are still clueless, you can still read the ultimate answer and then jump back to the riddle. Just like math, plug in the answer and then see if it works out. More than anything, I want feedback. Did it make sense? Could it be better said another way? Do other answers ultimately apply?

Faith, you were very close when you guessed "Satan," but I made sure to rule out that conclusion with the "The Beast created me" line. Well, I really can't prolong it any longer.

I Am The World

Now for some clarification. When I say the world I mean more of the collection of humanity fully under the power of the devil. It is less the people who physically make up this "world," but the abstract entity moving as one tool, being directed by the evil one. Hence all the switching of pronouns, as it can be seen in many different forms. This definition certainly isn't foreign to today's evangelical church circle and it is much the same concept as I presented.

The other question that I will leave for you to ponder is "who are you as the reader," or "who is the author addressing?" Other than that, I will end this for now as I am thoroughly exhausted; and I'm sure you are as well.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

-The Greatest Title Ever Conceived By Man-

So what, it's been a freaking month now? That's depressing... I have too many excuses to count... There's always the "just too busy" one that everyone pulls, but then there were internet availability problems, filter problems, and freaking blogger log-on problems! Argg! and again I say Argg! Its not helping that everyone else seems to be slowly floating away.

Moving on, I'd love to just take a whack at the whacked out holiday that is fast approaching, but homework is the top priority this week and I can't spare the time. But in the interest of posting at least something new, I'm taking a different (not to mention easy) route for the blog and having y'all mull over and respond to a little riddle I stumbled across recently.

Now this isn't just any old riddle, it's rather deep, actually very deep, so don't just skim over it. Read it over a few times; to put it mildly, it's a thinker. I found it intriguing and I'd love to know what y'all think of it. I plan to touch on all of your responses and add my own in my next post. So those of you with mildly active minds, get cracking. (I wouldn't be surprised if Jason writes me a novel)


I am ___________

If you wish to be stupid, I will kill you on site. Depicting you as an utter fool for humanity to perceive, mocking, criticizing, silencing. Or I shall simply distance every ear. For stupidity amongst men, like morality, is merely for the majority to conclude and can quite easily be their justification for your insanity. Betraying the body that built you up, you assert the embedded evil we all hastily seek to destroy hidden somewhere in ourselves. The deepest of fears is that you will embody our most secret of thoughts, screaming them to others, our truest of feelings and longings. For this, we must suppress you with every ounce of strength. You are the quintessence of just sentiment and your cadence trembles the mind from whence you escaped. As a shadow amongst the long lost titans, we cannot stand here while you blast us with the undesirable truth. There is no greater terror than bringing told what we all know somewhere close to or everlasting souls; it can never be brought to full illumination. I am the most noted giver of good news and delight, whether it be ramblings or fully fictitious rants, I supply them to you and your shallow yearnings. You demand little of me, so I provide even less, only imparting just the amount that will leave you gasping for a breath of some lasting fulfillment. You cannot face me in my full state of being, for I am everywhere a soul seeks satisfaction, however momentary it may be. You can never be free from my abundance of slightest deceptions as long as those to careless to place worth in an essence somewhere past the temporal choose to follow me to an immortal wasteland. The self-proclaimed wise are in my front pocket; they are addicted to my meaningless praise and pedestals. Never underestimate the ignorant in mass; for they are led into the pit with ease, their unity is their downfall. Come, I have trinkets and comforts, dazzling and inviting; albeit lasting as a spark in the wind. If it is fantasy, or the supernatural you fancy, behold my empty objects of anonymity. They promise you the mystical power you seek. If nothing less, let me busy you with my numerous pursuits, for they are the modern definition of livelihood. You should learn to embrace me, so many have. Give me the burden of responsibility and truth; they are of little use for you and are safest in my hands. A few will tell you to fear me; they call me “The Beast.” But that cannot impart remotely what it is you face. “The Beast” created me; it is him you should fear. I am no more than his pawn on this vast stage of the cosmos and beyond. Are you prepared to face me? Can you muster the strength to leave me? The only way to conquer me is to destroy it; everything, the essence of it all, the entire physical world with all its substance and senses departing with me. This is no mere riddle mind you. The knowledge of my existence, let alone my stifling power is an exceptional commodity. Can you live without me? Have you ever truly lived with me?

Who Am I?



Ohh, and since I don't have the time to malign Valentine's Day myself, I'll let this guy do it for me-

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

An Ode to Football

It was two weeks ago when I was about to post my in depth picks for the remaining bowl games when my computer decided to hit the sack early, leaving me with no post and little desire to seemingly waste another 30 minutes of holiday break. The result was three weeks of nothing and a few individuals accusing me of "blog drifting." I know everyone has seemed to falter when it comes to posting lately, but its the freaking winter holiday smorgasbord; don't we all deserve some time off?

But since that time of year has past, its time to get back to work. I was going to touch on this with my bowl pickoff a few weeks ago, but now that the football season begins to wind down, I think its time to look back at quite a memorable season. It always seems to end too soon, but it was great while it lasted. There's nothing like Football in America.

Months ago, when the muggy August heat resonated through the country, the leaves's began to fade; the arctic Canadian air began to creep down the long North American continent, and the undeniable feeling of football was in the air. Every team was equal, but all eying the top of the heap at the end of the season. So, as the heat of summer gave way to an all out blast of autumn, we witnessed an onslaught of memorable, and less than memorable games, performances and media hypes.

In the National Football League, we saw yet another Colts hot start with talk of a record breaking season, only to see a near fatal collapse. We witnessed a more than regrettable draft pick; the feel good story of the rising of the Saints, the realization that Bret Farve is human, and that perhapses a single quarterback can be the difference in Baltimore. The public lynching of Drew Bledsoe, followed by the weeks of Romo-mania and a season ending slick ball only added to the literal remake of that classic soap opera "Dallas." (Don't forget the oft antagonizing comic relief of T.O.) We saw the a slew of rookie quarterbacks sidelined for the likes of washed up veterans, only to see a mid season switch and the newcomers building up steam for next year. LT became more than just a high fantasy draft name and grew to the title of all out superstar. The Eagles learned from previous seasons and had a fiery backup ready when #5 bit the dust again. And the Monsters of the Midway made a resurgence, but have yet to prove their lofty record.

In College Football we saw multiple top ranked meetings through the season, both resulting in the Buckeyes of Ohio State prevailing. Despite every kind of setback, the Oklahoma Sooners sat atop the Big 12 at the end of the year, only to be outlasted by the seemingly unknown Boise State Broncos and their endless bag of tricks. A running back would lead Arkansas in every way possible to the SEC championships, only to be beat by the eventual National Champs and an all out brawl was the cherry on top of Miami's train wreck season sunday. Rutgers and Wake Forest both had magical seasons as they played the part of giant killers. And both Ohio State and Michigan, considered by most the two best teams in the country, where pushed around and embarrassed at their elevated bowl games.

And let's not forget the long and glorious season of Jr. High vs. High School bouts. There was a massive mid season meeting on grass with the introduction of of my long asked for stadium lighting and more than a few Jr. High victories. But, as to be expected, High school simply took care of business.

For the majority of the teams out there, their seasons are over. Some have exceeded expectations, some have found new lows (cough, cough, Detroit) but all are making changes and looking forward to next year. There will always be next year...

Final thoughts on this years hometown teams:

Texas Longhorns- It began with a lofty ranking and ended with a nail-biter against a .500 team. At first I had thought that this team was still getting the bugs out early in the season, but as the loss column expanded and a less than perfect bowl performance ended a late season slide, I finally recognized that this team just wasn't as good as everyone would like to believe. We made a decent showing against OSU but throughout the season we never took that championship form and it was only a matter of time before it came back to bight us. Those lucky wins at Nebraska and Texas Tech where just that, and a knocked out QB and a bad pass interferences call were the just ends. That secondary full of outstanding players never gelled and the running game fell apart in pressure situations. Thank God we had someone to pick up the slack at quarterback. Most of the defense and offensive line are gutted going into next year, but talent on offense and one heck of a recruiting class might make some noise.

Texas A&M Aggies- They had a feisty QB and powerful two back tandem, but the team in a whole was still far from greatness. I've yet to see Steven McGee throw the ball well and is still just another glorified halfback under center. However this team came out on top more often than not and looked as if they might gain some momentum into next year. But of course you had to lay an egg in late December and continue to add to that bowl shaped omelet.

Dallas Cowboys- Although it may have seemed sudden, my hatred for this team took years to develop. The image of this team has been tarnished for so long and once the hype began this season, I had officially had enough. They have talent, but they don't use it consistently. I sort of bought into the Bill Parcels hype for a while, but I've had enough, the inconsistency and random collapses are on his shoulders and I don't think he's done a good job. T.O. isn't the problem. They will have talent next year, the question is if they are going to use it.

A Few Thing I Think I Think- (about this season)
>I think there are a lot of down right bad commercials out there, but those Diet Pepsi commercials take the cake. There are some out there that are bearable, maybe they even produced a chuckle or two the first time around, but these ads are just god-awful. First there were the cheesy Pepsi machine playing football ads, then one with Reggie Bush. Now they have the pathetic voice over clips that cause you to desperately claw for the remote. At least those beer commercials have that stupid guy humor that mildly entertains each time. Even those Jackie Chan Super Bowl ads were pathetic. Who advertises for a diet soda anyway?

>I think the broadcast by NBC has been great this year. They really hit the nail on the head with their no-nonsense feel and endless array of top notch annalists. So why do they have that punk like music video by Pink (at least I think that's her) before each broadcast. It's such a quirky song and doesn't fit at all anyway. I'd show you the clip, but I don't think its even watchable. Who at NBC wrote that check?

Video of the Year- Boise State Wins Fiesta Bowl
There was a contest this season where fans could vote for the game changing performance of the year. Due to the fact that this performance was in a bowl game, it wasn't part of the competition. Too bad, cause this was, hands down, the greatest play this year. Even more than that, it was probably the greatest 15 minutes of football. Add the live TV proposal after the game and it makes some of the greatest TV ever. Hollywood couldn't of written it up. For those few who watched the end of this game you know what I'm talking about and this little video can't nearly display what this game was like. But here you go anyway...